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Rooting for Roy

In my indolence, i languished before the tv for more than an hour: a flair to remember, the chronicles of CYX. I only intended to watch flair, was hoping sinclair would be on, unfortunately, it was xiaxue instead. bleh. when the trailer for CYX came on, i seriously contemplated getting off my bum and stopping all this time wasting, the programme sounded really lame. CYX? err, trying too hard to sound cool. but out of sheer laziness, i continued watching and things started to piece together. aezoh told me last night that roy had won some design competition, but he told me it was "a handbang, or something". but i thought, "eh, isn't roy in archi?" and then i caught a 0.5 second screenshot of a vaguely roy-like person, and the whole show became a spot-the-roy contest.
a bit strange, to see a friend on tv, and to be rooting for him, that he would trash everyone else, simply because you kinda know him, though hardly much better than any of the other contestants on the show. but it was so fun and almost exciting, looking out for roy, and feeling so happy when he won (even though you already knew he won), and feeling that the show should have given him more airtime and portrayed him better. and realising, ah hah, that's where he's been these past few weeks.

on another note. i think its quite sad that such a cool thing could happen to roy, and people like me could be totally oblivious about it. weird situation, to consider someone your friend, and not even know something as big as that. i think its a sad reflection of how people can be so isolated, even in churches, where no one knows whats going on in anyone elses life. Worse still, what if no one really cares? For me, it's the terrible, bewildering, overwhelming sense of aloneness of the tea break. And i don't think i'm the only one who's felt it. And worse, i know i've perpetuated it.

sigh.

Congratulations, Roy, i wish i knew you better to say more.

posted by beckyboo @ 10:48 PM